Dear LightWind,

You were right. As much as I hate to admit it, you were right, and I made a huge mistake. I acted out of fear, hurting both myself and you because I could not come to terms with my past nor my emotions. 

The thing is, I can’t close my eyes without thinking about you, I look forward to your messages every day, and I get butterflies at even the thought of you being near me.

I tried to tell myself that it was just me being lonely at first, but when you called me to explain your thoughts on destiny, I was enthralled just by hearing your voice. 

I’m sorry, and I know this is something you might not be able to forgive me for, but I hope you can find it within you. I still have doubts. I’m still bad at relationships. I still don't think long distance will work, and I still don’t want kids. But maybe these are things we could work through. 

And if you’ve moved on, that’s okay. Just let me know. There are still obstacles, and I have not the faintest idea what to do after this. But I didn’t feel right continuing this lie I unknowingly told and pretending I wasn’t hurting too. Call it me gaining closure, if you must. 

I said I didn’t want to fall in love again, but it turns out I was too late, because I already have. 

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Love,

Ayla Wilmot