Such Joy

i miss your arms
around me, laying me back
in summer grass. cool
against my skin, yet strong,
a gentle reminder that i can
not escape, that i do not
want to escape, that i would
spend forever with you
if it meant i could keep you. 

and i realize my heart
goes the way of foolishness,
as every lover's does
and that the words i say now,
i will later scorn, but my
heart yearns to love again
and i no longer wish to deny
it such joy.